August 13, 2003
Too early is the day, and yet already the sun burns. How excellent might be the vision if I give it time to develop? The Focusing is slow, as Inner Eye adjusts slowly to the lighting. I am the one who Orders the Elements, partakes of the mysteries, Drinks it all in and tells the tale.
'Vampire' is a word which has acquired so many ugly connotations, the mad-driven hungry cursed individual wandering the streets looking for 'blood', the Essence, the life-force, always hungry, driven crazy of the hunger 'til sense is gone. Nothing but the feeding, feeding, always needing.
But there is so much more to it than that! Oh, so much more. The stew-pot of the energies, the brew in the air, moving like the weather all about, we are all in this Soup, though we be not aware of it. Those of us who feel the rising and heating of the currents, the lowering of the heavy and sad, as it flows like 'storm clouds', the floating of light spirits, it is all the Soup which surrounds us.
Wthert aware or not, I am there, Drinking it in. It may be a slow, unconscious slurp, or knowing that I do this, it may be more Focused. But I am always there drinking it in.
Silver's said of the Empathic Vampire: ''But there are some of us who cannot merely "switch off" like that. We feel EVERYTHING. When someone is suffering, we are able to tune in to that and feel the emotions expressed by the suffering individual.''
I am like that, the Empath. If I cause sorrow, then it is there in the Soup for me to feel. Not much focus seems to be given by some of the various Left Hand Paths to 'compassion', to which more than a few of the Right Hand Pathers point with a long bony finger.
Endeavoring to not cause suffering is not just for Buddhists. If you find yourself drinking in ALL the energies in the cosmic soup, then it becomes a Selfish concern. John Donne declared ''No man is an island''. I have declared my Godhood, declared my State-hood, but 'Joan to the Edges Of Her Mind' is Not an Island. I have no idea how I could make it so. I would not want to be so. Somehow it would seem a state of Death to be so.
I rejoice with someone's joy almost as if it were my own. I cannot Will this, it is a fact of my nature. I sorrow with someone's sadness almost as if it were my own. I cannot Will this, it is a fact of my nature. I claim no virtue in this, it is a fact of my nature.
If I cause sorrow, I cannot predict the chain of events this will cause, and the many indirect ways it could come back to me. Misery begets misery. Happiness begets happiness. This is all part of the Unconscious Evolution. By understanding the PROCESS, we can make it the 'Willed Conscious Evolution'.
So it is for my own selfish wishes, that I do not wish to cause suffering. If someone takes offense to anything about me, such as my beliefs, I cannot help if this makes them suffer. (As in the case of so many 'well-meaning' family members convinced I am in the Devil's clutch, and on my way to 'hell'.) Whether I want to, or not, I feel their suffering. I cannot help it, but hopefully I can Transform it by Workings of Beauty to bring comfort.
That is all and everything. The Beauty I can bring into the world Sustains me, strengthens me, and uplifts me. That it might bring happiness to others is part of the side-benefits. If it comes back to me in added joy in the Cosmic Soup is also an unexpected side-benefit.
I claim no virtue in this. I am not 'lording it over another' and claiming to be 'better', as humans are wont to do. This is my nature, this is what came to light when I declared my Godhead. If all humans were so empowered, think then what magnificent Willed Conscious Evolution could occur! Knowing the Process of things gives us the ability to change them by whatever powers we possess.
This cannot be done by those who limp and kneel hoping to curry favor of their gods. It cannot. A passive wish is powerless. The knowing Universe takes little heed of their wishes. We have to come to It demanding, declaring 'My Will Be Done' with all the force we can muster. Then and only then, might the Forces that be take notice, sniff and say, ''Well, maybe . . .'' And the Results will flow in, in ways we cannot now fully predict.
We, an equal Force among them, can do that. But only if we Recognise we are an Equal Force by declaring our Godhood.
So, there I am, one on 'the path less taken', declaring what has awakened me from my slumber and bid me come to write. May it be of benefit to you, the reader. If it is not, then I bid you good fortune elsewhere. There are so many Elsewheres out there. But wherever you go, take your own Inner Light with you to illumine them. May it shine strong and bright.
Ah ho, so mote it be, the Scribe has written it. Blessings to the struggling Universe, which seeks to Understand.
