I've been slowly growing in understanding of just what XEPER means. Xeper is a 'state of being', a 'conscious Self', 'being' as opposed to 'doing'. But is there a PROCESS of 'doings' and choices of action that lead to the state of being that is Xeper?

Clarifying this will further my understanding of Xeper and may facilitate it. I think there is, but WHAT KIND OF PROCESS? How is this chosen? I think of the Will, ever seeking a goal, causing our minds to be ever alert to possibilities for fulfulling that goal. The Will has to be a major part of this process that facilitates Xeper.

I was recommended to a book called FLOW. "Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi has written well about the subject and manythings related in his classic Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience".

This book expresses a concept very similar to that of Xeper.

What I call Will, Csikszentmihalyi calls 'attention'. The focused Will creates attention:
"Because attention determines what will or will not appear in consciousness, and because it is also required to make any other mental events - such as remembering, thinking, feeling, and making decisions - happen there, it is useful to think of it as psychic energy. Attention is like energy in that without it no work can be done, and in doing work it is dissipated. We create ourselves by how we invest this energy. Memories, thoughts and feelings are all shaped by how we use it. and it is an energy under our control, to do with as we please; hence, attention is our most important tool in the task of improving the quality of experience." (pg 33.)

"At one point we are saying that the self directs attention, at another, that attention determines the self. In fact, both these statements are true: consciousness is not a strictly linear system, but one in which circular causality obtains. Attention shapes the self, and is in turn shaped by it." (pg 34)

"Flow helps to integrate the self because in that state of deep concentration consciousness is unusually well ordered. Thoughts, intentions, feelings and all the senses are focused on the same goal. Experience is in harmony. And when the flow episode is over, one feels more "together" than before, not only internally but also with respect to other people and to the world in general." (pg 41)

Notice he calls it an 'episode'. It is not a 'continuous event':

from http://www.xeper.org/pub/lib/lib_xeper.htm:
"Humankind wants the Divine. In erroneous religions this desire is a return to the Divine in one way or another (either by union or by being in the divine presence in some place with far too much harp music). Well that doesn't work—you can't go back to the state where Xeper last occurred. You can't go back to a previous divine state any more than you can fold an oak back into an acorn. You can only go forward to another divine state. If you want to both achieve and experience your godhood, you've got to go forward." (Don Webb)

But the changes from that moment of epiphany still remain, though not the 'high' it had. Those 'highs', epiphanies that bring a sort of estatic clarity with them are not everyday experiences. These times of immensely 'concentrated attention' are special, yes, a Divine state. Yet, the changes they produce in our state of being, our consciousness, remain.

I think of my last deep Self channeling, in which I aimed to release some more of the fetters with which I'd been bound during my growing up. I do feel freer after that. I like my body more. I now regard my rounded belly with more than some sort of vague semi acceptance. Those women over forty still possessing the flat tummies of youth have applied much of their will/attention to the maintenance of their figure. I've simply applied my attention mostly elsewhere in my life. Not only being more at peace with my body, I also feel more at peace within myself regarding those loved ones living and dead who wouldn't understand my spiritual path now and fear for me. I understand more than just intellectually that they are victims of their beliefs. I can just hand their book back to them with a peaceful heart. I don't have the raw, raging hurt and anger inside like I used to.

That is very much the sign of a successful Working and in looking back I can see it was a Xeper moment. My 'state of being' is more cohesive now.

Those of us on the path of Xeper seek to increase the occurance of these special illuminating epiphanies. Knowing that they are special, and not a 'daily' occurance, emphasizes their 'divine' quality. By focusing our attention to to be open to their possible occurance, we are more likely to bring them into being, and thereby advance our state of being.

So I need a better title for this journal than, 'The Daily Xeper', since these moments don't happen every day. Perhaps when I finish reading FLOW, I will be able to come up with a better title.

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