What am I thinking about RIGHT NOW? Sufficiency. Hunger. Balance. Never to become so satisfied that I stagnate. Never to hunger so much that the ache drives me mad. Knowing the Balance between these two.

After I typed those words, I then picked up the pen and this drawing resulted. (In case you didn't see it, notice her dress's collar, like a measuring gauge between 'empty' and 'full'.) I am not talking about a physical state of 'emptiness' or 'fullness', but a spiritual one, in terms of motivating drives. Perhaps the picture has an eloquence that my words don't, in capturing what I was thinking about 'right then'. There's a sense of sadness at feeling 'insufficient' and 'fumbling'. Notice how she fumbles with her stirring spoon. So I don't always know how to manage the right 'recipe'. Feeling 'insufficient' at times is part of life, so long as we don't dwell there. As I ended my previous entry here, "I need to know my own strength, that I *am* sufficient," yes, I do. If I don't, then a sense of 'insufficency' makes me ache with hunger. There's that Pink song, "I don't want to be myself, I want to be someone else." That's not good. We can't really BE anyone else, outside of a miserable imitation. I want to be the best ME that I can be. A sense of balance comes again. I grab the stirring spoon, and will manage something.