Relating it to my own understanding, the only thing I can relate it to is "Acintya-bhedabheda-tattva" ("Simultaneous Oneness and Difference.") That concept comes through pretty well. I was reading an article in which people wrote of the concerns towards which they were turning their magical energies. There is such a commonality to the various concerns: health, wealth, good fortune, romance. Our experience of our problems is unique, but not the problems themselves.

I spent much time last night surfing the web, going from one Livejournal site to another. A waste of time, perhaps, but then I noticed the lament of one person. "Is anyone else experiencing this?" she asked of the forum. Her creative muse is unreachable. For what it was worth, I assured her, "You are not alone. My muse is sleeping too." I also added that I have a feeling things will improve next month. So there it is again. My problem, which felt so unique to me, is not unique. Sometimes, we are wanting that assurance.

Then, later last night, I had such a weird image when reading the Invocation. SET was seated, snout head bowed and snoring. His scepter and ankh were at his side, but he was SLEEPING. I took it as a humor that I should be sleeping too.

But then this morning I think about it. IF I sense the Divinity in me to be sleeping, and SET to be sleeping, what's going on? The fallow that another magical/creative person noticed? I am thinking again of the "Acintya-bhedabheda-tattva" ("Simultaneous Oneness and Difference."). Those of us who are LHP celebrate the 'difference', for it is the fount of creativity and freedom. Those who are RHP celebrate the oneness. LHP/RHP is a matter of FOCUS. So I sniffed out there, in the magical matrix and what do I sense? If the Divine Rebel, the one who stands apart, can't be energized, What the hell is going on?

There is so much suffering out there. So many lives are being lost in a senseless war. The gods of compassion can't keep up with hearing the cries. These CAN be times of transformation and growth, but these are the most difficult. I heard it on the TV news, a man created a website in which Americans can apologize to the world. I think this is because they are feeling bad because Bush got re-elected. But I think he is only a puppet for some other forces in command, which we never see. Kerry, too, would have become a puppet. Clinton tried to make changes, but so often got thwarted. It's so easy to seek a single target. We want it simple like that.

But it's not simple. This is just the beginning of understanding. I, who seek to 'be aware of interlocking influence', must be aware of that. Everything is action and reaction, cause and effect.

So what do I do? Certainly, understanding gives a clearer picture. I can only wait it out, and in this process of waiting, maybe patience is learned. The quiet heart. It all begins with the quiet heart. Whether the focus is inward or outward, it begins with the quiet heart.

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