Only the calm eye of reason can tell me if this is so. I wish to bring peace. I do not wish to imply that only by Illuminaria's light can truth be found. It is only that for ME, only Illuminaria's light (the divine which is within me), can illuminate and reveal truth.

Perhaps the world is not so simple as I'd thought. Perhaps I will evolve in a new direction. I seek it here and now, the truth. Mind games profit little. I wish to drink from the deep waters. It is in solitude that I best do this.

So I listen and I write. I do not know how someone can read something I have also read, and see a completely different document. I do not know. It is a waste of energy to question their assured vision, assured at least for them. So I scatter the forces of delirium to the four winds and now let the healing begin.

I do not want this search for Truth to just be about ME. As endlessly fascinating as I find myself, I would grow myopic if that is only where my focus is. Soon, all would become false, if I do not focus IN and OUT to get the whole picture. Yes, this 'whole picture' is one created of me, born of me, and it, too, is inseparable from ME. But it is the best chance I have of learning truth.

Wise people have said it over and over. The best way to become wise is to listen. Of course, they disagree upon WHAT or WHO it is to which we turn our ears. But these, like other disagreements, I shall leave to the winds.

The oak tree stands tall amidst the winds, though gentle flowers may be tossed aside. I bid the gentle blooming have a sheltered place for its tender petals. Here is my 'sheltered place'. I have gone to the public marketplace and banged loudly on the drum. I have said my piece. Now I wish to learn my peace. The peace HERE, within my heart.

Let all discord be set aside. Here, now, let there be this gentle blooming. I breathe in PEACE. I breathe it to the farthest reaches of my lungs. Tomorrow will be another day. Maybe it will be a day, when inescapable the picking up of the sword, but I hope it is not. I want REASON and CALMNESS to have sway. By the power invested in me, by the DIVINE forces both outside and within me, I declare it so. I, HRH Illuminaria Hekate Aradia, declare it so. I, HRH Charles Ahriman Kolchoi Tontonon, declare it so. Joan, who is the totality, declare it so. So mote it be!

So mote it be!

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