Seeking Strength

Seeking Strength
September 26, 2003

Here I am again, retreating to the dark, hidden quarters. What will I find here this morning? I hope to find hidden wells, strength in the underlying currents. If I breathe deep, sniffing this way and that, Listening with my inner ear, looking with my inner eye, I will find this.

All of my life is a preparation for this point. Of course, that can be said of ANY point in my life and all that came prior to it. It's just that NOW seems 'pointier' than other 'nows'. Sharper bite, pointier 'point', you know what I mean?

So I summon the energies, breathe deep and arm myself.

I would have many arms like an Indian Goddess, but Illuminaria just has two, so She must make those two count, even if they get weary along the way. But several arms! What a useful thing that might be! Or would they get in the way of each other? It's possible, I've not fully considered what it would be like to be so armed.

As I said, I'll 'make do' with two. But empowerment I want, and I will get it. It's just in the steady facing of each day, striving to make what Order we can of it, and finding beauty and joy along the way. In the darkest quarters, can be found the most beautiful flowers.