Sometimes To Save Yourself Deep Self calls and surface self answers. The horoscope advises: "It is possible you have been spending too much   time on worldly matters." But how does a 'darkie' interpret THAT? I who am friends with the '7 deadly'? Then, a phrase and a thought and a caution: "Acintya-bhedabheda-tattva" "Simultaneous Oneness and Difference." The artist who commited suicide because of stagnation. The magician who commited suicide because of ? Too much self-analysis? Too much text-analysis? Some Thelemite gone awry. Crowley then writes 'Burn this book!' 'Have done with the protocol and the must have 16 things done by X!' Stagnation is a curse and what is the cure? Return to Deep Self! But what if the way is lost? Go deep, go deep into the magical matrix. Sink down deep. I cannot go to Egypt, as did one Elder. But I can in imagination fly to those sands, touch the grains and see the pyramids. I went everywhere in my mind. Up north just a tiny bit to the English bridge transplanted. Waters of Colorado just a little farther up north. I wanted to imagine myself Everywhere, get truly 'lost' and see newness. Then a patterning of colored light on the wall appears as if I'd not seen it before. Surely, this travel is in my mind. I would float with the butterfly, return to Capistrano, visit the ocean, feel the sand between my feet, and the waves tickling and those odd slimy green plants with which the ocean is filled. Deep underside, go deep. I want to leave off every hinderance, like a heavy backpack. Set it down. Escape is on my mind. How do I keep sane in a world in which so many lose? Deep underside, go deep. Deep roots nourish. For a moment there in the places where snow falls still, imagine the sharp chill of that bracing air. Oh, I could almost feel it. What healing is brought on cold foreign air? Then images arose without my hand and I sat and watched. This living room, yet not this living room. Still my sofa green, yet the walls fell away and I am in an oriental room. Mats everywhere, low tables, tulips in clear vases, all is silent. Two robed figures sit cross legged, meditation style, facing each other and subtly smiling. Masters each of the separate paths. One, through self absorption, gains wisdom. One, through other absorption, gains wisdom. He in the black robe sitting, faces he in the red robe. And they are smiling at each other. At what point is wisdom obtained? Just then a coin falls from the sky and lands in my lap. 'Two sides of the same coin!' "Acintya-bhedabheda-tattva" "Simultaneous Oneness and Difference." My trip to the deep places of magical matrix, seeking Other, while not losing Self has shown me this. The smiling sages concur maybe I've got the lesson. Every time I hold a coin, I will remember. The images are mine to keep. Sometimes to save yourself, you have to lose yourself. JAL, 04 - 04 - 04

This is a result of many different conversations in my various discussion forums.

Maybe some explanation might clarify:

"Masters each of the separate paths.
One, through self absorption,
gains wisdom.
One, through other absorption,
gains wisdom."

This is the LHP path vs the RHP path.

One guy goes around to some of the public forums and declares 'there is no RHP or LHP!' Of course there are, they are distinct schools of philosophy. But, yes, they are two sides of the same coin. I've read of the Thelemites getting lost in their attempts to lose the Ego, requiring that they must periodically 'find themselves'. On the other hand, I, too, have found this true of myself. I must 'turn the coin over', as sometimes to 'find myself', I must 'lose myself'.

The LHP master is placed in the black robe, because that seems to be the prepared magickal robe color. I thought of the Dalai Lama for the RHP master, and I've always seen him in a red robe, so that explains his robe color.

So maybe this explanation will aid in your understanding.

    
Two Hands On The Wheel?
What do I mean by THAT?
Maybe it means I want all possible means of control to steer that wheel,
left hand at '10:00' and right hand at '2:00'.
"Two hands have I, but my strength is in the 'left'"